Whoa…I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck this morning. Or maybe a tractor.
4:24 a.m. came and I was wide awake. I remember Ali coming in to our bedroom room at 12:03 to share something with me. Did I really only get about 4 hours of uninterrupted sleep? And why in the world was I wide awake so early when I’m so tired?
I think I know why…our family has had to deal with a few unexpected turns in life these past two weeks. I feel like I’m in uncharted territory. I lay down at night and my mind can’t seem to shut off. And when I wake up in the morning, these “unexpected turns” have been the first things that have entered my mind. And so I pray….
And I trust the One who has life under control…my life, Bill’s life, Ali & Zach’s lives. The One who hung the stars and laid the foundations of this earth. The One who knows the very numbers of hair on my head. It was good for me to spend time in Psalm 139 this morning. Verse 6 in The Voice Bible reads, “It is the most amazing feeling to know how deeply You know me, inside and out; the realization of it is so great that I cannot comprehend it.”
Life isn’t easy. It’s during times like these that I become very thankful and seem to take less for granted. I tend to look for Jesus more, and I rely on His strength because on my own, I don’t have much left.
In the Jesus Calling devotional this morning, John 16:33 was one of the scripture references. I find it no coincidence…The Voice Bible reads, “I have told you these things so that you will be whole and at peace. In this world, you will be plagued with times of trouble, but you need not fear; I have triumphed over this corrupt world order.” Those words soothe my soul.
In these two hours that I’ve been up already, I’ve spend some time with my Lord, I’ve done three loads of laundry, folded some already clean laundry, organized a few things and finished some paperwork. It’s been a productive start! We’ll see how I feel about 3:00 this afternoon…I might be found asleep in the office at the Mission! 🙂 Seriously though, I’m asking for God’s strength today. I’m pretty empty on my own.
I hope this may encourage you with whatever you may be dealing with today. Know you are not alone.
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