My day?
Not my normal Monday.
No BSF meeting…Ali had a doctor appointment. Everything checked out fine, and her latest MRI was clear! Thank God! We’re going to set her up with physical therapy for her headaches.
I also found out from our doctor my self-diagnosis of a pulled muscle in my rib area was wrong…I have a cracked rib instead! I’m that good…I cough and crack a rib! I have to now be careful of pneumonia, so our doctor put me on an antibiotic. No matter what I do, I hurt. I’m looking forward to healing!
Lunch with Ali afterwards was wonderful…at Buffalo Wild Wings!
My annual thyroid ultrasound and mammogram followed. Thyroid hasn’t grown, thankfully. Results will follow for my mammogram. I usually have to go back for a follow up with a “questionable area” on my left side. I’ll be pleasantly surprised if I don’t get called back in again.
I made it just in time to pick Zach up from school for his doctor appointment after school let out. All was well there too! So, I got to see our doctor twice today! 🙂
But all day long, as I ran here and there, the enemy kept bringing up so much garbage in my mind…I began to feel like a complete failure.
I began to feel terrible about myself…I’m a terrible mom. I’m a terrible wife. I can’t keep up. I’m behind in everything. I’m not a good enough friend. I let people down. I will never measure up. He knows how to get me down, and I let him do it.
When I walked through our door at home, I kissed Bill, started a load of laundry, changed my clothes and went immediately to the treadmill. I knew I needed to get out my frustration and get my attitude in check before interacting much with my family. I began to walk on the treadmill, with a slight constant pain on my right side thanks to my rib. As I walked, I listened to Beautiful by Mercy Me. I wake up to that song every morning. The lyrics are:
The days will come when you don’t have the strength
When all you hear is you’re not worth anything
Wondering if you ever could be loved
And if they truly saw your heart they’d see too much
You’re beautiful
You’re beautiful
You are made so much more than all of this
You’re beautiful
You’re beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You’re beautiful
And praying that you have the heart to find
Cause you are more than what is hurting you tonight
For all the lies you’ve held inside so long
And they are nothing in the shadow of the cross
You’re beautiful
You’re beautiful
You are made so much more than all of this
You’re beautiful
You’re beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You’re beautiful
Before you ever took a breath
Long before the world began
Of all the wonders He possessed
There was one more precious
Of all the earth and skies above
You’re the one He madly loves
Enough to death
You’re beautiful
You’re beautiful
In His eyes
You’re beautiful
You were meant for so much more than all of this
You’re beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You’re beautiful
You’re beautiful
You’re meant for so much more than all of this
You’re beautiful
You’re beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
I soaked up every word, over and over, as if Jesus was saying these things to me. I walked for two miles, burned 380 calories and praised God as He corrected my thoughts and attitude.
Each one of us is beautiful. We are worthy. We are loved. We are treasured, sacred and are His. Look up the song on YouTube. You’ll be encouraged too (if you’re needing that today)!
Again, I have much to be thankful for. Even if I have a cracked rib!
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